The End of Summer – Thank God

I am going to be so glad when this summer is over. I have had the worst time and didn’t enjoy it one little bit. Sure, the first week I spent with my youngest in Toronto, but since then it’s been all downhill. Fiancé in hospital and myself going back and forth too many times to count. Spending the day waiting for service people to show up only finding out that they cancelled but they couldn’t be bothered to let me know.

So Monday is the last day for delivery for my latest Amazon order. It looks like it won’t arrive either so that makes 5 orders in a row. No idea why. Maybe I should sign up for prime so would get faster/free delivery.

People keep telling me secrets and I won’t tell them to anyone ugh. I’ve got to stop listening.

No clue what’s going on with my daughters grandmother. She keeps texting me to do things for the girls. Of course she won’t ask her precious troll of her daughter, who only uses her daughters for a source of income.

Was supposed to get a new fridge yesterday so waited around all day. When I called the office looking for an update I was told the cancelled the order until today. I was furious. I mean you couldn’t call me and let me know. I had other things I could have been doing.

Todays going to be busy going to the hospital, chauffeuring my daughter around and crossing my fingers that the fridge comes (and that it is indeed new).

OK time to get caffeinated and start the day

Ciao xo


Mere days remain.

So now there’s like 3 days left of my worst vacation ever to date. Didn’t do nearly what I wanted to do and doubt I will. Have to go to hospital today. And the new fridge is coming tomorrow. And for Friday I have my daughter coming over and getting my fiancé too. Of course my daughter had plans for the weekend and next Tuesday it’s back to work for me and back to school for her.

Hopefully it will be a good weekend and not drag like every other one this summer.

Still want to go to store at Place d’Orléans. Get a tattoo (maybe). Museum visit would be cool too. Win the lottery would be great as well.

Ok back to relaxing before I continued with my day.

Ciao xo

Yeah…not much to say

So yeah I said I don’t have much to say so that means that this will be a long post lol

Just a couple hours left to finish my 2 loads of laundry before I go pick up my fiance from the hospital for her weekend pass again. Then I have to take her to her lawyers and her fathers bank. Her aunt is going to help her only because it will be all in french so I won’t be able to help.

Remember back in December when I lost my ring? well I found it. The night before I dropped my lip balm and it rolled under the bed. When I bent down to look for it I found the small white fan that we couldn’t find at the start of the summer. The next night I just decided to look under the bed and right there where it should have been when I dropped it in december was the ring. We had moved the bed then, vacuumed and I really thought it was lost forever. It must have been caught up with the fan or the bag of US pennies. No idea, ut it has been found.

Discovered how lonely I am. I have tried to talk to people the past week and just feel like I am just disturbing people or maybe they don’t want to talk to me…with the exception on my mother who when I was talking to her on the phone continued to interrupt me and cut me off when I was speaking. UGH. No wonder why I text her usually. I’m positive tha if I am ever single again I won’t meet anyone and will die alone.

I am not snubbing my daughter but just don’t feel like being her chauffeur again. She asked me to go to Value Village this morning but just wasn’t in the mood. I do want to go but I guess I want to purge more stuff before I go.

OK back to laundry and coffee

ciao xo

2 down, 2 to go

So the end of my holidays are in sight. In a mere two weeks I have to go back to the idiots at work. It doesn’t seem like I have done anything fun for myself during this time. Sure I went to Toronto, but that was more for my daughter.

Might of mentioned this in my last post, but I. All alone this week. My daughter is seeing her grandmothers and my fiancé is in the hospital again for mental health reasons. To be honest I don’t feel like I’m in a relationship at all and makes me feel lonely. I have tried making new friends but that’s one thing I’ve always sucked at doing.

So today I was told I don’t have to visit her since she was home all weekend. So would be the perfect time for me to do something to do what I wants….but what.. I thought about a visit to the war museum, but it’s like $20 to get in plus parking. I know my oldest is working today at the mall (she has many jobs) and that will cost me money too, but at least I will hopefully look good lol.

I know my posts are all over the place like a squirrel crossing the road, so I do apologize for that .

What really irks me is when I see couples walking together happily, and you j is they are couples cause they are holding on to each other. I miss that since it’s been a long time since mine would even hold my hand. 🙁

Ok time for another coffee and then get ready to do something (something fun).

Ciao xo


No idea why I woke so early this morning. I mean it’s the middle of my vacation: 2 weeks down and 2 to go and to be honest I am not having a great time. With the exception of going to Toronto, I really haven’t done anything fun to write home about and even the quick visit to Toronto was just OK.

So I have to bring my fiance back to the hospital this afternoon/evening at some point, This is where the fun really begins for me as I will be left all alone this week. I wonder if I will actually get to do anything I want to…like go to a museum or do some shopping on my own,,,heck even go out to supper by myself (unless I am daring enough to invite someone lol) – not going to happen as I don’t have the confidence to, nor am I interested enough in anyone who is interested in me. So looks like I will be spending the week mostly alone except for the hospital visits.

No idea what’s up with the strange dreams recently. They all seem so real, then I wake and realize they were only just a dream.  One dream I had received a message from someone who used to be special, and when I woke and checked my phone there was no message. Another dream I had moved back into a house I lived in with my ex, only with someone new and I commented “are you sure you want to live here in a house that my ex and I lived in”.

Well back to my new scheduled mundane week :/

ciao xo


So crazy comes home for the the weekend. I am sure it will help her until she has to go back Sunday. It’s funny how everyone is looking out for her but no one is looking out for me. I have to admit it’s hard having to deal with everything on my own.

Even with my fiancé here I feel lonely. I try and talk to more laundry and relax for a little (yeah right).

Ciao xo