Now the Shoes on the Other Foot.

Well looks like now it’s my turn to be an ass and ask for what I deserve  Since my youngest moved in with me near the start of the month I haven’t said anything. Now its the last day of the month so I decided that I should ask the ex if and when I would be getting my support payment for her. And not to be mean, but I do still have my lawyers name so I can contact her and ask when I should do next.  Seriously she had better not say that she cannot afford it. I went through so many years not being able to afford things and simply doing without. So as the title says; the shoes on the other foot, lets see how she likes it.


I got my cards read

Had one of my friends read my cards. This is what she told me:

So Jeff… Have you recently thought about walking away from something or making a decision? This could be anything from a situation or pattern of thinking. Something hasn’t been serving you and its been time for some time now to make a change.

Archangel Gabriel is telling you that it’s time to speak your mind. This could be verbally telling someone what you really think or just journaling to get your thoughts and feelings out into the open in order to remade an old pattern or stuck energy.

The appreciation card is telling you that you have much to be grateful for. You need to see all the good that surrounds you. And maybe recognize the ability you have to express yourself.

In the end you ‘re reminded that the door to personal happiness is wide open for you. Any healing you need to do will come easily and taking everything else into account you will prosper and thrive.

Loss for Words

Yeah so when I say I am at a loss for words, it usually means I have a lot to say. Seems like as in a previous chapter of my life, I am left at home to do almost everything, while others are out and about doing what they wish.  Sadly it seems that I am forgetting who I am and how to have fun with my life. I been meaning to go to the GAP for the past month, but so far haven’t even made it to the mall. I been to the parking lot once. but that’s as close as I have come.
I wonder who is paying for groceries tomorrow? I paid the last 3 times. Maybe its cause Gwyn is here now. Which reminds me I do have to ask the ex for support payments and baby bonus she may receive.
Had a dream the other night I didn’t want it to end and wonder who the lady in my dream was. So many things in the dreams seems so real and recognized most of the places. Maybe it was just a dream though and won’t happen.
Oh well off to get my oldest soon and I am going to let her drive part of the way home…so if you don’t hear from me again, I love you all lol

ciao xo

Saturday July 14

I think I need to procrastinate a little longer before I write today. Maybe do one or 2 more Facebook quizzes about what type of vegetable I am lol

So yeah we have had our new puppy Jasper for 2 weeks now and things are going good so far. He’s either playing, sleeping or pooping. At least Penny is getting along with him; even though it sounds like they are going to kill each other when they are playing.

And as well Gwyn moved in just after that and things are going good so far. I am sure her grandmother has spoiled her and has done just about everything for her. Now it’s up to me to teach her how to do things – like making basic meals to feed herself and of course clean up after her self too.

Too much I want to do this weekend and all I am missing is the motivation to do it. Moving a few things around, putting up posters (properly), a trip to Ikea and groceries. Then there is of course what I want to do like go to the Gap and/or maybe Winners. Of course our “stuff to give to Value Village box” loos like its getting full.

Oh well back to procrastinating a while longer as its way to early to do most of the things I want to do.

ciao xo


Now the Fun Begins

So yeah, my youngest has moved in with me now. Full time. I am really happy about it, but at the same time I am freaking out and having anxiety about the whole thing. I have to give her rules and I expect her to follow them and if not at least ask me a lot of questions about what to do.
I have another shopping list with things that she needs for her room. She still has a bunch of stuff she should go through and get rid of.  Well maybe not get rid of-rid of, but put them away in the basement since she’s not using or playing with them.

One of my friends asked me the other night “What’s making me so miserable”. I wasn’t expecting that but knew the answer. I guess in the past while I have lost myself and am doing so much for everyone else, I have no time to myself to do what I want to do. I guess its something I need to work on and soon since I am now in a family of 3 with a dog and puppy. Yikes!.

Well going to go enjoy the quiet while everyone naps or is still in bed,
Hopefully I’ll do something memorable today that will make me smile when I think back about it.

ciao xo

This is Jasper :)

Well I said I would post a picture of him as soon as possible and this is him.

Getting that anxious feeling recently, almost like something is wrong – but I don’t know what.

I think I deleted my pic on the previous post.

I’ll be back this weekend to bitch some more, until then

ciao xo

Oh Well

So yesterday didn’t quite go as planned. Puppy delivery was delayed until today round 2-3ish but that’s originally what the ad had said, so you can’t really complain too much. Just that extra day would have been nice. I did manage to go to Ikea and pick up the table I wanted.
Ugh France is sick. I can hear her throwing up, upstairs in the bathroom – which is the reason why I am up. I hope she feels better soon.
Today is Canada day and we have no plans to go anywhere near downtown. Just way too many people and I am not a fan of crowds.
Looks like I better get a move on looking for the reel mower for the back yard – its a jungle back there. It would also help watching the puppy too lol

OK that’s all I had on my mind today so far

Happy Canada 150

ciao xo